You know what happens with an average looking; not at all smart guy who wants to be loved…Here is…my adaptation of it…
This guy, I call him Raju, is a very much a mallu. He is average looking and always thought gals to be the beautiful creatures. It always ponders his mind; the male genders except in human beings are made beautiful. The peacock, lion, cock…man the list goes very big. Why man is made inferior to women at least in loveliness. This is not fair.
He felt jealous on seeing fairly looking and smart guys. He used to closely watch them and emulate their actions. Most of the time those emulations failed despondently.
As a natures law, the opposite sex has to get attracted. Our hero also gets attracted at times..Many times he intends to talk to a gal, however he try the things doesn't go his way at all. He finds the problem is with his looks and blames the gene for that.
Now that he realizes, this is not going to be working for him. He confronts himself by assuming the responsibility of finding a gal for him is with the parents. He decides not think about it at all. Hey it's a magic, no more frustrations. He is happier than ever before.
When he gets into college, he ensured that he is not getting into any relations with gals even as friend. He finds likeminded guys in the college and forms an anti-love brigade (not moral policing though). They engaged themselves with the war against the lovers.
But love has got such a magical power, the brigade perished in no time. And all the brigadiers found their love interest, leaving Raju alone.
I said love has got magic; Raju develops a kind of crush on one of his classmates. As usual, he dared not to open it to anyone. He secretly admired his love interest. He moved his seat behind this gal's. Sitting in the class room but all the time concentrated on seeing his gal. Even waiting for his gal to talk something to somebody.
Time went by..And Rajus love remain as one sided. Does he feel the pain within him? Yes he do. Now college time is over…He still treasures this as cherishing memory.
What this is to do with the title "My Confessions"? Raju is nobody but me.
I should confess my fellow brigadiers, I've was in love. I know the power of friendship but aint known with the deepness of love as mine was one sided.